As a person who is committed to self-transformation, I continually "choose the red pill" when it comes to pulling the curtain aside on my own unconscious, to reveal the false power of the "Oz" that pushes the buttons and pulls the strings and levers of the monkey mind of reactions and negative feelings.
Recently, I uncovered yet another subconscious "entity" in the form of a "demand for retribution". This is a strong one because there are so many justifications for this in the world--so many victimizers and so many victims, who in many cases seem completely innocent, unfairly attacked or debilitated, sometimes outrageously so, and in some cases killed.
For me, this has the effect of exacerbating or "keying in" this Demand for Retribution. It feels like a Quentin Tarantino revenge movie with as much blood and gore as possible. What is that saying? "Revenge is best served cold"?
The tragic problem with this fantasy, in my own case, is that the "wrongness" I feel that was perpetrated upon me, requires that the injury it caused continues to victimize me. So, the injury becomes this huge justification for achieving retribution against the oppressors and perpetrator in a future that never comes.
This is a classic case of "continual present time re-stimulation". Every time I feel the pain of that injury, it adds charge and power to the retribution program. Every time there's an injustice out in the world that I personally witness, or hear about on the "news" (victimization events are guaranteed to make the news), the need for revenge and accountability grows ever stronger, and pains and discomforts of my life further solidify as a constant reminder of that deep need for revenge against my victimizers, or at the very least some "street justice".
The great thing about "The Oz" is that its power is granted by the curtain behind which it hides as it creates and broadcasts its fearful images. Pull aside the curtain, and there is no more power. This becomes a metaphor for all injustice in the world: reveal the "operators" and "owners" behind their curtains of power, and that power is effectively stripped from them. Then we all can see they are just like us, living in their own worlds of fearful disempowerment and victimization.
To mop up residual charge from this revelation, every time I see or hear of some perpetrator victimizing someone or something, when those retribution feelings surface, I say, "Interesting point of view I have that point of view." This process neutralizes the negativity around the issue. Then, "Who does this belong to?" and "return to sender" because all negative thoughts are not mine--they had been adopted by me as if they were my own.
As always, the non-duality of compassion is the key here; compassion for both sides of a perpetrator-victim complex. Compassion removes the polarity of the drama, and reduces it to an observation of choices: Each "side" made their choices and it resulted in this drama. Both are deserving of love--even if they don't love each other or themselves.
The quantum matrix program we live in is driven by choice. Choose a different outcome, and the matrix program adjusts to accommodate that choice. Choose to retain a negativity or grudge or point of view, and the matrix program adjusts to accommodate that.
The quantum sea of energy has no agenda on its own, but it can be programmed to appear that it does. All of us who have had the perception of the "world being against us" will attest to that. The truth is we created that program of the world being against us. We can just as easily create a world that is in favor of us.
To your quantum health,